Nobody Said It Was Easy..

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Sometimes people only see what they want to see, hear what they want to hear, but do they really “hear” , “see” it”? It’s all perception! We live in a world of perception and deception especially online. The typed word is “perceived as “tone of type”. People take from it what they will. Imagination goes with it, fantasy, an idea of who or what you are. Tone of Type means how the other person takes your post, how they imagine it as if it came from your lips. It may not be what it is intended to be though after all there really is no tone, there is no voice, there is no body language.. it’s all the typed word. No seen or heard emotion. Nothing to actually base the tone on. I’ve shared so much through Social Media over the years, but I assure you, even with those who I thought were “friends”, I’ve never shared everything.

Since December of 2012 my life, our lives have changed drastically, but let me be fair in saying that just because I haven’t shared like I used to that it hasn’t continued.

(I know some of you know)

Due to betrayal, I haven’t revealed what I might have. I’ve shared pieces and parts. At the end of 2013 I learned a valuable lesson. One that carries with me. I already had reservations and a trust issues.. that person only reminded me that barriers and walls are meant to be kept up.

My husband had already had 2 heart attacks, he had 2 stents in his heart since he was 37 when the first occurred. The second occurred in 2011 if my memory is serving me correctly. Not many months after that our son, who was a freshman at the time sustained several brain injuries that still exist today, so while I praise all of his efforts and good deeds online, we are still working to relieve him of symptoms, like breathing, smelling and other issues. I will not be ashamed to say that he was diagnosed with ADHD and was on Adderall for it for some time. By choice, partly his choice, we decided to go off the Adderall over a year ago and let his body take it’s course. He’s strong! He’s young! My Lil ‘ OZ! My husband had a quad bypass 17 months ago and is still dealing with Diabetes, Neuropathy, and the aftermath. He takes 11 medications upon waking, 4 in the afternoon, 11 at bedtime. I could care less about me anymore, even though it’s hard. Yep, hard! He took care of the me, I couldn’t keep up on so much, now I have to pull for all of it and I …

Will!

Some people think because I have hope in my heart, once every 3 months or so that I’m able to go out that I think my shit don’t stink, that I’m better than someone else…

I’m not! Nor would I ever think it. Seriously? ! I’ll be the play’a in my own game!

A pretty outfit, a little make-up, one leg leaning to the hard left while the other holds it up, wheelchair in the van, the stick out of view, but no one knows..

Invisible diseases are even invisible among the very people they should be acknowledged from.

Even those in remission are looked down upon, I mean you can’t have a bad day, you’re in remission, right? Wrong! Remission only means an absence of symptoms for a time being it doesn’t mean that no symptoms will present.

A time being can be minutes, hours, days, weeks.. there is no absolute!

Those people still hurt too, still feel fatigue and get sore, wear down more quickly than someone without an illness.

I’m not in remission! I just understand those who are.

Now have a CRPS patient taking care of another ill disabled person… add struggles, surgeries, life, precious children, the grand baby. This has been my life. As my son approaches another surgery next week…

When you think you’ve had enough and you can’t go on…. Go On!

Don’t ask me how I do it..

Auto pilot!

Don’t ask me how I feed the dogs, the cat, love my children, my grandson, my family, however distant…

Or how I take care of my grandson…

Don’t ask me about me..

Don’t even ask me how I lift my eyes..

Just know that I do..

~ #TVa

#StrongerThanPain

(But he leaned in and whispered it might be worth it)

I originally wrote this weeks ago and used the same title recently on FB to show how proud I am of my (our) grandson De’Mantai Xayvier Howard who made 8 consecutive honor rolls and graduated at the top of his second grade class (and the entire school) . … (this post was written before that and left in drafts)

Fight for Tomorrow

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Always have faith that a better tomorrow will come. We have to or we won’t survive. The life of chronic pain becomes a family disease. In the last few months we have lost over a dozen people in the CRPS/RSD community. At least half to suicide. Most people do not premeditate their suicide. Many do experience suicidal ideations. It has been noted by professionals that “wanting to die or commit suicide” and suicidal ideations are not the same”. If they were more of us would be evaluated and helped before we get to the point of knowing our pain is never going to managed and into the sudden taking of our own lives. When it happens it is often spontaneous. There will have been signals and signs misread. There is always a cause and there will always be an affect. So many are not afforded proper medical care to reduce pain levels. Opioid medications, such as Hydrocodone, continue to be well versed as a gate way drug to harder and heavier medications such as Oxycodone. It has been said a like a broken record over the past decades that Marijuana and narcotic use causes a person to become high risk for Heroin use. I do not believe this to be true. I do believe it’s possible in some personalities. Addictive personalities perhaps, but this does not include our entire population. I am offended for honest chronic pain patients that need pain care who have been dismissed as drug seekers. I am offended by good providers whose practices have been raided for prescribing Opioid medications.

It’s not the Opioid itself that is the epidemic in our society, it is the person who does not take it exactly as prescribed which can lead to abuse and misuse. Re evaluate the patient for possible addiction or consider another pain management plan of action. Either way they need help!

If pain patients aren’t taken care of and the pain cannot be controlled..

The number of deaths continue to rise. The epidemic will be chronic pain related suicides.

Your autopsy report will probably read.. as a result of depression, misus, abuse or other. There will be nothing about really happened. There will be nothing about the fact you couldn’t get pain relief and your last, very last resort was taking your own life.

DEA.. You don’t know pain until you’ve contemplated.

Speak up and speak out!

Let there always be a tomorrow. Fight for your tomorrow!

Drowning In Fear

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My day time stop breathing episodes have been worsening. It’s still and silent! Where ever I am in the breath at the time is where it all stops. If I had just inhaled I have a few seconds as if I’m under water, I’m not panicking yet. If I had just exhaled there’s little time left. I don’t gasp for air, my body doesn’t startle or flex, everything ceases. At some point in my mind I am aware that I’m not breathing this is when the panic sets in, I tell myself breathe, but I’m not breathing yet, breathe! I can’t even hear my heart beating.

And then I come back! My chest is thumping loudly, my head is pounding, my body is shaking, but I’m back.

I thought these were panic attacks in the past until I realized if they were I should probably be attempting to get air, take it into my lungs. My body and mind doesn’t react this way, though. I have a Pulmonary Specialist that I see for Central Sleep Apnea and Narcolepsy. I do know that I stop breathing numerous times a night for up to 2 minutes. I use an Auto Servo Ventilator for that.

When I was a child I nearly drowned trying to save my sister who was drowning. Her instinct was to save herself so I went under longer. I know what it feels like to not have that air and having it occur more and more often is frightening.

I’ve been lucky through out my life to not experience many headaches. Just average really with the flu, cold or just a random one. The headaches I’ve been having have been terrible. My chest, my jaw, face, arms. All of me, I suppose. Beyond what I consider my normal CRPS. My blood pressure has been on the rise. I’ve been on Lisinopril for it for over 2 years, but it’s still high in the 150’s and 160/’s.

One minute you’re doing something, even resting and the next your gone! The clock is still ticking, but time has stopped for you. You can’t make it move.

No one else can make it move either…

That’s fear!

Killing Me Softly…

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…But not with a song. Instead it’s Empathy! The last few weeks I’ve pulled away from most activities online especially Facebook. I’ve always liked my little corner of the world, I like being the little duck in the big pond, away from the hustle and bustle of it all. I’ve always enjoyed raising awareness and helping others the best that I can a midst my own pain and hardships. I have a hard time feeling what other’s feel and it really doesn’t matter where or who it comes from. The emotion is still there. The worse of it is when people argue, or lash out at one another for what ever the reason might be at the time. Anyone, Or all the big and little one ups. I am not speaking of any specific person or group. It still plays heavy on me. I want to be friends with everyone. This does not mean I want to talk in private messages or share secrets. I do not. I want to be a part of a support network and get along with everyone. You won’t find me a part of tight circles or tight groups, I’m not into that. I prefer open sharing, caring, support and providing helpful information that can assist someone or everyone. Private messages are on point. Rarely do I share personal information in private or get friendly with someone. Not because I don’t care but because I do. Everyone should be happy for what each other is doing positively. If you knew me at all you would know that the community and life I come from has a specific standard of respect and decency, a moral compass, a morality that if people spoke to each other the way they do on Facebook they would be told to leave immediately if in person and if online booted right out the cyber doorway. Yes, really! And I am not speaking of religion in any way even though my spirituality runs deep. Some people think I know things or gossip about other people I know nothing of, I really don’t, nor do I care to know. Why would I want to cry over anyone’s drama? Empathy! I can say this much in all the time I’ve been on Facebook which has been a few years I haven’t exchanged more than a few dozen separate IM’s. Nope! There’s not many out there that can say that I have. I’ve spoken to, actually spoken to about a dozen people to the point of a conversation and a few more single answers to a question posed. I don’t even know why I’m defending this I suppose assumptions can hurt a bit too. I am truly not use to such chaos. Not being use to it does not make me better than anyone. I am not! But it does make me different from many. I really do look forward to meeting more people offline, being apart of local events, activities, and advocating for patients. I have been meditating on much lately. There is so much to life and attempting to live it. So much just breaks my heart. I’ve always had the ability to empathize above sympathy, most can only sympathize. Having too much empathy hurts. There’s no way to shut it off and it really does kill me softly. I will be focusing on the most important which may not be important at all to someone else. I know my path has been written I just have to decide which way down it to go.

CRPS/RSD and Chronic Pain: Should We Stop Living Because It Hurts?

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We should not stop living because it hurts! I’ve heard so many times if so and so has Complex Regional Pain Syndrome/Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy or Chronic Pain in general if they go out for the evening, wear a certain type of clothing, shoes, accessories, move their bodies they can’t possibly hurt that bad. Wrong! It means they are not letting the pain and disability rule their lives. They want to live, laugh, enjoy a moment, make new memories, perhaps experience some of the old.

Too often we become trapped in the cycle of isolating ourselves. Maybe even feeling sorry for ourselves. It’s okay to feel that way from time to time it’s not okay to let the illness take over our lives and that which we love. Family, children, goals, dreams and wishes for ourselves.

If you see someone doing something you wouldn’t do or your body isn’t capable of doing please don’t judge them. Maybe all it means is that they are pushing past the pain for a few minutes, a few hours, or a few days. Granted there are people in the world that like to be sick, they crave attention and pity, but not all Chronic Pain Survivors have this mentality. It is not fair to group them into one category. One size does not fit all and it never will.

Some of us use medication to try to survive, other’s have gone off of all medication and use alternative strategies for coping and managing pain, other’s use a combination of both as I do. Just because someone can survive without medication doesn’t mean they feel better than you do it only means they have learned to manage their pain a different way.

If you love to dance as I did, dance! I do! I may last 20 seconds, I might make it through a half of a song, I already know my body is going to pay for it, so why should I hold back because I might end up down for a week after? I shouldn’t and you shouldn’t either! If you love to garden, do it! Pace your activities so you can enjoy your time. If after a half hour you can’t do anymore, don’t. There is a fine line between doing too little and doing too much! Learn you and what you are able to achieve. It doesn’t matter that the next person only lasted 5 minutes or another person lasted an hour. You are you!

Make daily goals. Lists can be helpful. I often have 5 things on my list, my goal is to be able to mark off 3 of them. If I can mark off all 5 it’s just a plus for me and if I only make it to 2 I’ve learned to let myself know it’s okay. Don’t put yourself down for not completing a task just move the one you missed to the top of the list and start again.

I tell myself “I will” instead of “I’ll try” it’s just something I’ve found quite useful after completing my Functional Restoration Program back in 2009. The word “Try” sets me up for possible failure from the moment I say it to myself. “I will” motivates me! There is no pass or fail here. We can or we can’t. We will or we won’t. We are not only individuals but individuals in our own pain, depression and mindset also.

Many of us deal with depression and/or anxiety secondary to our chronic pain. Close your eyes, relax and go to your happy place. Using imagery can be helpful. Don’t forget to laugh and laugh with others. Laughter produces endorphin’s and endorphin’s decrease physical pain.

Physical pain and depression can be a vicious cycle in itself. Depression causes pain to increase and the pain causes the depression to worsen. Living, smiling, loving, practicing appreciation and gratitude goes a long way in helping us overcome and survive the diagnosis’ we’ve been handed.

While there are times I suffer, I know we all do, I do not consider myself a sufferer, but instead a survivor. I am surviving this! I am alive! It’s been said that pain is that one reminder that we truly exist and for me I believe it. I am reminded every moment of the day that I am living, I am alive.

Be good to yourselves!

Don’t stop living because it hurts, survive the pain and go on.

~Twinkle VanFleet

Reflections Of…

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The last week has been a bit overwhelming and my previous post somewhat confrontational. That is not the image I want left etched in the minds of my readers, followers or the communities in which I’m involved. I do not belong to a single community, but several. Contrary to what has suddenly become popular belief I am not hateful, bitter or spiteful. I have never in my lifetime been out to hurt anyone, I have only ever helped others. Before the injury which led to my CRPS I took care of children that weren’t my own, one had no blood relation to me or my children, other’s were by blood and did not include my own. I breast-fed a child that wasn’t mine because her own mother couldn’t and the baby couldn’t take any type of formula. I saved that baby’s life. I had happened to just give birth to my second daughter 2 weeks before and so was able to be a surrogate for her.

I cared for 2 dying people. I literally closed one of their eyes upon passing. I was not even old enough to really be put in the position to, but I was and I did.

I’ve lived a life of service.

Before I entered the CRPS Community, I was a controversial writer, reporter, small time. Published in various areas of writing, soft erotica, dance, poetry, I owned a small publishing business for a time on top of a 60 hour work week working for someone else and I was still busy doing for other’s.

I’m not here to sugar coat anything. And especially not from the last few days.

I’ve had attempts to add me to friends lists with names such Nancy Drew (Hardy Boy’s Nancy Drew Mysteries, remember those days?) I had a Mary Mack on my list that I didn’t realize was there (Mary Mack Mack Mack all dressed in black black black with silver buttons buttons buttons all down her back back back, remember the old kids clapping game?) and several other fictitious play names have tried to add me My support group has an influx of people attempting to join. I’ve had pages go up about me, one taken down, I’ve been called awful names, I’ve been told I’m going to be sued, I’ve been apologized to, and told if the person knew my name they would address me by it. I didn’t understand this all day yesterday because the person was messaging me to my name. Then I realized she must think I’m using a nick name. So many of them do. It was assumed I was also.

I’ve been kicked out of what I will call a group to give it anonymity., I will not mention the name and if asked I will not tell you. I honestly do not know if it’s common knowledge or not. All those involved were removed from what I understand. It did seem a little odd for me as I had not posted there at all. I cannot let it hurt me, anymore. I admit that it did! Very much so! I have no animosity toward the administration for their decision.

While many are very upset with me, I do not have any regrets in regards to letting everyone know that the information I posted in the comment section of the previous post was truthful and accurate.

My only regret if it’s even a regret at all is that when push came to shove I shoved back with a vengeance.

Would I do what I did again? I’m not sorry to say, yes! Yes I would! I don’t need popular to survive, I only need to survive. I am not just a CRPS survivor, no….

I am simply a survivor!

My life has shown me that from the very beginning in all it’s let me see and feel for myself.

I wish you all pain eased days and nights,

Proof of my name is included.

~Twinkle VanFleet

Seeking Photos for the Video Slide Show Presentation “People Striving to Make a Difference in the Lives of Those Suffering and Surviving CRPS/RSD”

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People Striving to Make a Difference in the Lives of Those Suffering and Surviving CRPS/RSD.

Hi everyone!

I’m seeking Photos for a future video that will feature those of you who strive to make a difference in the lives of those with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome/Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy.

Once all photos are in it will be fairly decided who will be featured in the video. Space will be shared with other’s who work just as hard yet has either never been or has rarely been recognized for their efforts. September is Pain Awareness Month and if all goes well this video will debut during that month.

Your photo can either be a head shot or a body shot. Send up to 2 photos, if you like!

Along with your photo, in the email body, please include:

1. Name, Foundation, Organization, Website Name, Blog Name, Radio Station, Etc. (You can also list all of the above)
2. City and State. (Or Province/ Country) (This video is not limited to the United States)
3. A brief bio on what you do (or have done) to make a difference in the lives of those suffering to survive CRPS/RSD. If the bio is too long it may be edited for space.

If you are a Mother or Father taking care of your CRPS/RSD diagnosed child, you are making a difference in the life of someone. If you are a child (adult or minor) of someone with CRPS/RSD and you are caring for your parent, you are making a difference, too.

In your email please add that you are giving me permission to use your photo and info. (I, (your name/organization), hereby give my permission to Twinkle VanFleet and RSD(S)-CRPS Advisory to use my photo and enclosed information for the Video Slide Show Presentation People Striving to Make a Difference in the Lives of Those Suffering to Survive CRPS/RSD that will be made public via YouTube.

I have personally invited a few people to be featured. If you do not get a personal invite from me this does not at all mean that I would not love to feature you. Please don’t feel shy or as if you aren’t good enough or haven’t done enough. You are just as important! This will be an annual project! No one will know from me if I’ve contacted you or if you sent on your own. That will be your business to disclose or not! ~smiles

Deadline– August 15, 2013. If you need a few day extension due to pain, please let me know before the deadline.

Please send to: submissions@crpsadvisory.com

If you have any questions, don’t hesitate to ask. 🙂

Thank you!
~Twinkle VanFleet

Independent RSD/CRPS Patient Advocate, Spokesperson, and Educator.

California Ambassador at the Power of Pain Foundation

Cortical Integrative Therapy with Dr. Victor M. Pedro on Living with HOPE Radio Show with Featured Host Trudy Thomas

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The following information has been taken from notes as a listener to the show and research, nearly all the words themselves belong to Dr. Victor M. Pedro. I take no credit for these. My goal is to get this non invasive seemingly promising information out so that other’s may find it a hopeful treatment program in their journey with CRPS/RSD, Chronic Pain, TBI’s and other illnesses and conditions.

Yesterday on the Living with Hope Radio show with Featured Host Trudy Thomas and Co Host Barby Ingle . Dr. Victor M. Pedro discussed Cortical Integrative Therapy (CIT®) a technique he uses and developed.

The entire show can be listened to here: http://www.blogtalkradio.com/thebodymindandspiritnetwork/2013/05/29/living-with-hope-with-host-trudy-thomas The Living with HOPE Show is Sponsored by the Power of Pain Foundation.

Dr. Victor M. Pedro’s career began as a Chiropractor and continued on with a Post Graduate in Functional Neurology. He says ” it was a very good starting point for brain function and innovative treatments that could begin to make a difference in peoples lives. He was fortunate enough to receive grant funding from the Rhode Island Legislature which permitted him to do a variety of studies and to study with significant people to get a more in depth and cutting edge picture of what was available in Neurology and how the brain functioned.

Trudy asked ” Does this therapy work for other conditions other than RSD? Dr. Pedro stated Yes! What he wanted his contribution to be is the person credited with creating an algorithm for understanding where in the nervous system to intervene.”

There are plenty of resources that will explain what a brain dysfunction is or pathology is, disease process or diagnostic procedure to figure out what folks are complaining about.

The rehabilitative model is where the challenge for the future lies.

Barby ask’s “Does every patient have a different algorithm? Or do you find they are similar with the same condition? The doctors answer’s ” By algorithm I mean a process we go about to evaluate what the affliction is or what’s wrong with the patient.”

Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy or Dysautonomias in general are a condition Dr. Pedro has a particular interest in. With this condition he tries to find out how the autonomic system is dis-regulated or not working well and then his team tries to decipher in the patients does this person have Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy (RSD) because the Sympathetic Nervous System is too high and not being inhibited or is it the Parasympathetic System that’s undergone demise and not effective.

“The treatment is actually different and makes all the difference in the world to the patients outcome, Dr. Pedro say’s.”

Barby ask’s ” Similar to Traumatic Brain Injuries (TBI’s) Would there be a different protocol for that?

Dr. Pedro answer’s “A different protocol in terms of how we’re going to add on different diagnostic pieces to the evaluation. Then we begin to identify precisely which modalities the patient needs. A TBI patient may have a similar pathology of an RSD/CRPS patient, may have similar findings, however we may go about the treatment process slightly differently.”

One of Dr. Pedro’s patients and a good friend of Barby Ingle’s just did an interview which will be released in this Saturday’s (June 1, 2013) edition of Pain Pathway’s Magazine. Please look for it!

Physical, emotional and nutritional needs are also taught this during treatment.

The autonomic nervous system delivers fuel to the body and brain. The autonomic nervous system is the automatic part of the nervous system that controls your heart rate, size of arteries delivering blood or fuel to the body and into our brain itself. This part of the body can be evaluated through a series of tests.

Someone with a compromise in their sympathetic nervous system may not have as much profusion as should be present. The long term consequences are considered regarding how this is effecting the tissue and that’s why the trophic changes present in this pathology.

Barby ask’s “Is maintenance treatment required or is this a one time process?”

Dr. Pedro states “The evaluation process takes 2 to 4 hours depending on the patient.” Based not only on tests, but the patients ability to participate.”

At the end of the evaluation we attempt to draw for them what we believe is wrong in the nervous system and make an educated hypothesis as to where the dysfunction is and what can potentially be done to correct it. A series of windows of observation, sympathetic, autonomic windows of observation more appropriately. We identify these at the end of the initial observation and we give the patient a treatment to see if their pain level comes down significantly or at least appreciatively.

That signals to us they are a good candidate for our program.

Dr. Victor M. Pedro is founder and president of Rhode Island Integrated Medicine, located in Cranston, RI. An accomplished, Board Certified Chiropractic Neurologist, Dr. Pedro pioneered the development of Cortical Integrative Therapy (CIT®)—a breakthrough, research-based treatment designed to address brain and neurological dysfunction in both children and adults.

After remarkable success using CIT® to treat school-age students diagnosed with speech, attention and learning disabilities, Dr. Pedro applied the treatment for use in patients with Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy or CRPS, dysautonomias, and traumatic brain injury (TBI).

Over the years, Dr. Pedro has lectured extensively on CIT® as a non-invasive, cost-effective treatment for TBI, pain syndromes, dysautonomias, and other brain-related disorders.

Cortical Integrative Therapy (CIT®) has been successful in treating a wide range of painful and debilitating conditions including: ADD/ADHD; apraxia; ataxia; chronic pain; dystonia; dysautonomias; hypotonia; memory difficulties; movement disorders; Parkinson’s disease; Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy (RSD)/Chronic Regional Pain Syndrome (CRPS); RLS; sciatica; traumatic brain injury; tremors; and vertigo, balance, and gait problems. ©Rhode Island Integrated Medicine

Other keywords in the interview- Inhibitory system, Renshaw cells, Autonomics, Small diameter fibers, Dysautonomias, Limbic system, Antonio DeMazio

http://corticalintegrativetherapy.com/ Cortical Integrative Therapy Rhode Island Integrated Medicine- The Brain Rehabilitative Specialists

http://corticalintegrativetherapy.com/blog/ NBC 10 Health Check Special Report: TBI & CIT® March 04, 2013

~Twinkle VanFleet, California State Ambassador Power of Pain Foundation

If I have mis stated any facts or quotes please contact me at: caambassador@powerofpain.org I will make any corrections immediately. Thank you!

Endoscopic Retrograde Cholangiopancreatography 5/21/13 Due to Gall Bladder Removal Fiasco

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This entire ordeal began with my emergency Gall Bladder removal 14 months ago at UC Davis Medical Center in Sacramento California. When I awoke from surgery I learned I had a small internal bleed and that was why a JP drain (Jackson Pratt) was inside my side by a long tube. I also learned that a small piece of Gall Bladder was not removed but no one went into details why. I asked if it would cause me any future problems and I was told it would not. I was sent home days later with the JP drain still attached to my body. At home I was required to measure the blood that had accumulated in the drain bulb, measure it, record it in a log for the doctor and discard the blood into the toilet. I had to do this 3 times a day for 8 days. I could only sponge bathe and stayed in the hospital gowns even at home. I had to pin the JP drain to the gown otherwise it would pull out of my body.

All year long I continued to have pain in the same area right beneath my chest, under the right breast, behind the chest wall, an opening and closing feeling and as it opened and closed a feeling of a fire place poker being shoved in and out.

Everyone thought I was crazy. It couldn’t be my Gall Bladder, I didn’t have one!

Late February of this year I began to have severe pain where the Gall Bladder use to be, I could hardly breathe, I deal with CRPS pain and average a 7 daily, but this pain shot strait to a 10. I thought I was dying! My husband took me to the ER. They didn’t believe it to have anything to do with my upper belly, Gall Bladder either, Xrays showed 2 clips from that Gall Bladder surgery, my Spinal Cord Stimulator (SCS) and it was dismissed as constipation. I’m sure I was constipated too with the meds I take, specifically Suboxone at that time which I took for CRPS pain management the last 3 years, but that’s not what the pain was from. I was sent home with the suggestion to follow up with my primary asap. I did!

He ordered an ultrasound right away. The ultrasound showed I still had stones which was believed to have been inside me since the original Gall Bladder surgery. It also showed inflammation and re growth of tissue as the posterior wall of the Gall Bladder is adhered to my liver.

I was sent to a surgeon. I told him how everyone thought I was nuts when I mentioned the pain being so similar to the original Gall Bladder pain, he said “Well you might be nuts, but it IS your Gall Bladder!” He had a great sense of humor and finally some validation.

In order for him to fix me he will have to cut part of my liver away.

He first opted for an MRI, but since I have an SCS (Spinal Cord Stimulator) I am unable to have one.

Instead he ordered a ERCP.

On Tuesday May 21, 2013 I am having 2 procedures done. The ERCP (Endoscopic Retrograde Cholangiopancreatography). I will be under full anesthesia while the camera is inserted down my throat and for the removal of the stones from my bile duct. If there are no stones found, but they were there, he will still cut the bile duct clean it out and leave a stent or tube behind.

If I end up with Pancreatitis as a result of the procedure I will be admitted to Mercy General Hospital in Sacramento for a few days, if not, I will get to come home the same day if no complications. I also learned that one of the 2 procedures may be rescheduled due to time. I hope not.

This has been going on since late February and the pain while it comes and goes can be so overwhelming even a second trip to the ER 3 weeks ago with an injection of both Toradol and Morphine then Morphine again an hour later didn’t help for 2 hours after I got home.

This needs to be done for me to go on for the actual surgery on my liver. While the stones cause pain, so does the that piece inflamed on my liver. It’s growing new tissue. It feels like back labor. My right side beneath my ribs throb in a way hard to describe.

I feel like that surgery in weeks or months down the line.

One thing that does bother me a bit is that in my xrays at UC Davis ER in February the clips were seen. In the ultrasound less than a month later they weren’t.

I hope I didn’t spring a clip or two. Kinda funny the way I said it, but not really.

This story will have a continuation…

~Twinkle V.

RSD Patient Seeks Community Support

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In a telephone interview yesterday May 14, 2013 a Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy patient stated she has temporarily lost custody of her 16 year old son to Department of Services for Children, Youth and Their Families (DSCYF) and they are trying to remove her 9 year old daughter. The patient from Delaware shared that the vibrations and sensitivity to her hearing has been documented by her doctor and that children services believes she has a mental disorder. Apparently a case worker for the State did a search for CRPS/RSD and found an article which included “Emotional Disturbance” as part of the condition and is using this against her.

Let me try to be more specific while CRPS/RSD can cause a number of secondary symptoms it absolutely does not mean everyone will have them. Unless your doctor has diagnosed you with a mental disorder I do not think this type of state worker is qualified to do so this way. And certainly not by Google search.

Jim Moret, Host of Inside Edition, Attorney and Author of The Last Day of My Life describes his own journey with his son’s CRPS diagnosis in When Pain Becomes the New Normal.

Many of us already face the stigma involved with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome formerly known as Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy first discovered during the civil war by Silas Weir Mitchell. It is not a mental disease or disorder. It is a physical condition which begins with physical characteristics and symptoms. www.powerofpain.org www.rsds.org

Because this illness is so misunderstood and because there are still so many that are uneducated regarding it’s existence patients face anything from “but you don’t look sick” to “you must be a drug seeker”. This disease does not discriminate! Even children can develop it.

A very high percentage of us, I don’t have the exact statistics, yet I’d guess it to be in the high 90 percentile were active members of society, we worked, raised children, were active in our lives, if single parents raised children alone, some of us had everything, others like myself had enough to just be happy.

Now let me ask you this…

Why would we give all that up for this?

I admit I worry about the single mothers out there with CRPS/RSD who lack family support. Especially when the family does not believe in the illness and when the patient is on disability and the family thinks the patient should be working. Again no education and understanding.

Many don’t even want to know. Do you know how many times I have listened to patients tell me how they tried to reach out to their families, spouses, children with educational material, videos etc, just to learn those people were not interested?

To me it’s no different than learning about Parkinson’s, Heart Disease, Diabetes or any other illness. Would you be interested in that?

This is why ongoing awareness for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome/Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy is so very important and why the power of community is just as important.

There are many disabled parents out there in the world caring for their children.

Each CRPS/RSD patient should be treated on a case by case basis, we should not all be clumped together, one size does not fit all, but the diagnosis is the same.

Autumn asks for your help. She asks that anyone who can come forward to write a letter on her behalf, make a phone call or support her in any way to email her at: Autumn Stevens

~Twinkle VanFleet