Tonight begins the 3rd day since I re injured my right foot. Any number of reasons could have been the cause. For one, I’ve been somewhat overdoing myself in healing, progress and maintaining pain levels. I refused to miss doing my stretches, or routine, even when I caused myself pain unrelated to any illness or injury. Pain that was a result of not moving or using muscles and bones for too many years. A good pain even if it hurt because no matter it was progress forward. I’ve re injured myself several times over the years and always with the same result in flareups and associated issues. Until the Gohl Program.

Another reason could have been that I’m so tired I was just absent minded to make the step I intended to, another could be I had just gotten off the slider not long before and my back was sore and my knees wobbly. That’s why I left it down in the first place. I wasn’t finished using it. I’m still fairly weak and don’t do big sets at once. I learned my lesson already. Mostly. I mis judged stepping over the bottom metal leg of the machine as I moved toward the doorway and as a result stepped entirely on it with all my weight, left hand grabbing the dresser to keep me from falling, and my foot was still on it. My entire right side was heavy on it.

While both the bottom and top is bruised it’s the bottom that’s worse. When I weight bear the knot on the bottom presses into the ground and the rest of the knot in the center pushes upward through to the top. (insert potty mouth words) but I’m still walking on it.

Normally people with RSD or CRPS wouldn’t use ice. I did. I’m getting rid of my worries and hurts and I can’t let using an ice pack be one of them. Not at this point. I didn’t have any adverse reactions. I did put a dry wash cloth between it and my skin. Voila! No problem.

Bending my toes isn’t happening right now. I’ve manually bent them. You know like how the 5 little piggies went to the market. Anyway, I’m not kidding.

I sometimes miss that quarter beat. In other words, I’ve never been a whole note. Ha!

Of course it’s something that’s a total bummer. Especially after having worked so hard these last 6 months.

It’s going to be most interesting to find out how long it takes to recover and be standing on my toes again.

As it heals from where it is now, I’ll keep working with my upper body and spine. Once the bruising and swelling comes down I’ll know better how much of a setback it may have caused. I do have a soft back support brace on now and it’s only so that my spine doesn’t shift as I’m unable to walk right. I’m minimizing anything that can get in my way of continued healing and anything that can cause the injury to want to get out of line.

I’ve come way too far and fairly fast after 16 years to fall behind now. I can’t stop, I’m obsessed, or maybe possessed. Both?

I helped my husband carry in bags from the car today when he asked for my help. That could go 2 ways. Either why would he even have asked knowing I hurt myself or I could be glad I got myself up to do it even so. I could have said no? I’ll stick with being glad.

I’ll re ice again today. Yep, I’m starting over it a way, but I’m not starting all over from last year. That foot has had tendons and ligaments torn off bones, chip fractures, entrapment’s, surgeries, scars, dings and much more. CRPS, Achilles tendinitis, arthritis, osteo, heel spurs, plantar fasciitis, etc and so forth.

All I need to know now is who has the voodoo doll?