Good energy and negative energy. Good vibes and bad ones. My husbands cardiologist asked us if we knew he had heart failure, too. No, we didn’t. It was in his electronic medical records. This is why the Echocardiogram was repeated as a baseline of comparison to his older one.

He had applied for Disability several times and was denied. That was an energy vampire. After his last denial he had no choice but to return to work. Our home was in foreclosure, liens placed by the utility company. Massive hardship. He’s been back 15 months now. I’m not sure how the HF was missed by previous doctors or SSDI. Could have made a difference in qualifying.
Could have also made a difference in others perception of him. It was assumed he could do whatever someone needed or wanted of him. Like many of us it took on a glimpse of laziness. 

Good vibes, good energy is that by working he’s getting daily cardio instead of what became primarily a sedentary lifestyle. He’s lost 50 pounds this year. 

He’s on Coreg now. Fairly high doses. 1 of several medications again. Last year he was without health insurance and the Obama care wasn’t at all affordable at the California minimum wage.

Stuck. No care, no medication management. He needed the blood thinner the most.

My wish now is that there’s still time to strengthen his heart. 

He runs a forklift now and drives a bobtail truck to Folsom and Stockton for company deliveries and pick ups in addition to other work. Fast paced. Am proud of him. 

Can’t believe it’s December already. He’ll be 51 in 12 days. Neither of us celebrated our 50th though there’s much celebration in just being alive. 

As for myself, I found my missing MP3 player. He bought It for me about 8 years ago and it’s been missing for 3. It has my meditation and relaxation programs on it. Progressive muscle relaxation, deep breathing, guided imagery and more. Yay. The music is a plus.

I may smudge our home with white wage today. If not, tomorrow.

Remove negative and painful energies in myself and my surroundings. It’s amazing aroma therapy, too. 

Happy Monday!

Todays Menu.

There’s many variations to my soups, as I’m sure there are for many of you. This one is simple.
1/2 chicken breast. Lightly seared (in water) on all sides. Boil remainder in 1 half cube of chicken boulon, ( I do 15 minutes, medium high heat) Mrs. Dash table variety, 1 teaspoon. 0.5 teaspoon of Mrs. Dash chicken seasoning. Garlic powder, fresh garlic, 1 whole yellow onion. Oregano, cilantro and parsley to taste. Remove chicken, shred or dice. 

Broccoli and green beans.

Spinach pasta. Break 2 inches apart. Cook together with the above. Approximately 12-14 minutes for pasta to be ready..

While sodium exists in the boulon, I used half. More chicken is appropriate for most. 1/2 breast was to minimize meat content, yet provide protein and flavor.

Heart and diabetes healthy. 

No other salt was added. No sugar. 

Enjoy.

October was heavy, November ends. In the 10th month my cousin died of a painful blood disorder, my nephew was killed in a car accident, Dr. Earl Bakken passed away, my 50th birthday came and vanished, we attended my nephews funeral the following morning and that same evening my husband of 32 years had his 4th heart attack. Could there be more? There was.

My husband had just become a permanent employee at the company he temped for the previous 5 months on October 1st. His heart attack was the 27th, his company health insurance didn’t take effect until November  2nd. 
We applied for a one time pharmacy assistance program that allowed us to leave the hospital with all 10 of his medications. S thankful. As far as the hospital bill itself, I’m not sure yet if we also qualified for the hospital assistance program.

He was able to return to work a week later. 

We received the results of his follow up Echocardiogram. He also has heart failure in addition to the diabetes and years of coronary heart disease. He was diagnosed with the heart disease and diabetes during his first heart attack at 37 years old. Diagnosed with chronic pain syndrome 3 or so years ago among others.

Upper his meds to try to strengthen his heart. Really all they can do. 

December will be a year since I cracked the back of my ankle on my CRPS foot. That set my own progress back, yet I continue to move forward in my perception of pain, how I perceive it or even talk about it. I quit using my breathing machine nearly a year ago. Trying to do all I can for myself naturally still since I’m not in the care of any physician. I take so many suppliments daily. Burdock root is next on my list. 

It’s been raining for days. Love the rain, I find it cleansing yet I already look forward to spring and summer so that I can use my little pool again for physical therapy. 

2 weeks off Facebook tonight. 🙂

Happy Friday!

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For me, the days after is better than the day of. Today is Turkey Avacado Subs. Bacon on it would have been amazing, yet that’ll be left to our imaginations. Bacon and high fat foods are no no’s for us. Many of the diets people use for weightloss such as Atkins and Keto also increase heart disease, and of course cholesteral. 

Many years ago, my husband and I both did Atkins, we both lost an incredible amount of weight. As I reflect back the only good part of the program was the induction phase, and removal of sugar. 
Glad we stopped that. No telling extra damage. I’m adverse at times. I create solutions also. I don’t rely on anyone else.

Fat will kill us, whether we’re putting it in our bodies, or are carrying it on our bodies.

Food itself isn’t even clean anymore. Everything contains high amounts of fats, and sugars, preservatives. Canned foods are preserved with detrimental amounts of elements, especially when consumed daily, weekly. Fast food is artery clogging. 

It hasn’t been easy per se to cook decent food, yet it’s been my mission to do my best for us. 

Turkey is an approved food for heart disease and diabetes especially when there’s little to no risk for Salmonella or contamination. There’s always a risk though. Scary.

Sadly, we all risk our lives just to eat in order to sustain life. 

Cooking off the carcus tomorrow, Turkey Soup.

Leftovers. 

He has the games on, I have the Turkey in. The only thing I know about Football is when he tells me it’s either time to woot and clap or yell foul obscenities. True story. 

I’m thinking about something else that’s confusing and which no doctor can answer. My husband has never had high blood pressure. Not even through any of the heart problems yet he’s been diagnosed with hypertension and takes Lisinopril and another combination medication for high blood pressure too. His BP is often 100 – 110/, which we’ve been told is optimal. So my wonder is, is it for maintenance and prevention of simply because having high blood pressure is a risk or is it just part of an automatic regimen.

I can’t figure it out. Too low can be dangerous too. 

Well it’s a good day. I hope yours is too. 

If you enjoy Football 🏈 try not to let it raise your anxiety. 🙂 

Just a couple of years ago, I was on higher Lipitor than my husband. I was on higher Lisinopril with Hydralazine back up for BP 180 +. 

If you can’t tell why that’s so high? If all you can do is tell me I’m headed for heart attack, mostly Stroke, and then give me those meds? Bye bye bitch. Offensive? Pre diabetic too. Wtfe. 

I don’t take that shit either. Jajaja. 

When pain care was halted? I halted preventative maintenance? 

Understand? Cover your ass,

While I cover mine.

First rain for us here in Sacramento. Hope it’s reaching Paradise and each of the California fires. Our air quality has been at dangerous levels. Imagining those in it is heart breaking. Family lost their homes and friends of family lost theirs too. 

Plans for this weekend and the upcoming week is getting 3 topics ready to share. MLT, Kratom, and Kurtis Ozra Music. 

MLT is a treatment I attended that changed my life during detrimental times that includes a post protocol I was taught based on my own issues. Kratom is an alternative to maintaining pain reduction and Ozra’s Music is our sons lyrical and performance endeavors. 

Spoke to our daughter Rikki for some time today. Plan to FaceTime with her tomorrow. 

My husbands blood work has come back. Most is fairly good, considering. Upping his Lipitor. 2 other medications have already been increased. Results from his ECHO from the 18th will be learned next week. 

As far as myself, I’m well enough. Turkey dinner is still on. 

There’s always something to be thankful for.