Lost Inside a Memory

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LOST INSIDE A MEMORY

by Twinkle VanFleet

LOST INSIDE A MEMORY, WANDERING HELPLESSLY IN THE PAST-

INNOCENT AND CONFUSED, GROWING UP WAS MUCH TOO FAST.

LIFE WAS IN THE FAST LANE, PEOPLE FALLING DOWN-

INFLUENCE CONTROLLING LIVES, TEMPTATIONS LURKED AROUND.

UNSURE ABOUT TOMORROW, HOW COULD I HAVE KNOWN-

I WAS JUST A GIRL, BUT SOMEDAY I’D BE GROWN.

REALITY INCURRED MANY CHOICES, THOSE I WOULD SOMEDAY MAKE-

CONSEQUENCES WERE SURE TO FOLLOW, UP ROADS WHICH I MIGHT TAKE.

TRAPPED WITHIN THE MEMORY, I SEE A LITTLE GIRL I ONCE KNEW-

SAFE AND CONTENT FROM TOMORROW, OUR FUTURE HAD NO CLUE.

I MOVED ON WITH ALL STRUGGLES, SHE REMAINS PERFECT AND PURE-

I WOULD BECOME WHO I AM, TUCKING AWAY MEMORIES OF HER.

FINDING MYSELF BACK IN REALITY, WHO KNOWS WHERE IT MIGHT BE-

YESTERDAY, A SOUL DIVIDED IN TWO- ONLY THEN THEY BOTH WERE ME.

Written in the 80’s.

http://www.poems-and-quotes.com/life/poems.php?id=194458
Submission date : 2004-11-17

Crushed

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Crushed
by Twinkle VanFleet

Crush
Do what we must

Splendiferous
Love is us

Hardship
Seemingly unjust

Pain
Body and soul

Faith
To feel whole

Loss
You lose

Gain
We choose

Survive
A bitter-sweet divide

Actions
Go forth

Implement
A forgiveness course

Internalize
Hush, hush

Onward,
Crushed.

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My Dearest Daddy and Anne Madeline | Poetry

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Dedicated to 2 birthdays on 6/6. My Dad and my maternal Grandma.

My Dearest Daddy

By Twinkle VanFleet

06/06 – 09/07/91

ON SEPTEMBER SEVENTH 1991,
I CLOSED YOUR EYES-
ALL I CAN SAY IS I LOVE YOU,
I CAN’T SAY GOODBYES.

I WISH YOU WOULDN’T HAVE LEFT US,
I PRAYED YOU WOULDN’T GO AWAY-
I WOULD HAVE TAKEN YOUR PAIN IN A MINUTE,
IF YOU COULD HAVE JUST BEEN OKAY.

JESUS CALLED ON YOU FOR A REASON,
ONE WE CAN’T YET UNDERSTAND-
HE TOOK YOUR PAIN AWAY FOREVER-
HE PUT YOU IN GODS HANDS.

NOW YOU CAN WALK DADDY
AND RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN-
YOUR BODY CAN’T HURT ANYMORE-
YOU’RE STILL 100% A MAN.

NO ONE CAN SAY ANY DIFFERENT,
SOME WERE ALSO WRONG,
BUT THEY ARE THE ONES TO BE JUDGED-
WHEN THAT DAY COMES ALONG.

I’M PROUD OF YOU DADDY,
YOU ALWAYS DID YOUR BEST,
OUR MEMORIES ARE FOREVER-
NOW WE LAY YOU DOWN TO REST.

SO DADDY WALK WITH MAMA,
YOUR BEAUTIFUL WIFE-
SHE’S LOVING YOU TO PIECES,
FOR THE REST OF HER LIFE.

EVERYTHING YOU TAUGHT ME,
I’LL KEEP DOING IT RIGHT,
LET ME ALWAYS BE THE TWINKLE-
IN MY DADDY’S EYES.

LETS CLOSE OUR OWN EYES AND MAKE A WISH,
FOR YOUR ETERNAL LIFE I CLOSE WITH THIS-

IMMORTALITY IS A TOTALITY OF TIME,
WITH NO BEGINNING OR END…
HEAVENS LIFE IS NEVER ENDING,
SO DADDY, ‘TIL WE MEET AGAIN.

Written for, then publicly read and published at Sacramento Memorial Lawn the day of my dads service.
My mom is happily remarried. My mom and dad shared 25 years together before his passing.

______________________________________________________________

Anne Madeline
by Twinkle VanFleet

06/06 – 10/23/87

SHE WAS SPECIAL AND WE ALL KNEW-
SHE GAVE SO MUCH LOVE, SHE’S A CHOSEN FEW.

NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN, SHE’LL BE WITH US FOREVER-
WE MUST MAKE HER HAPPY, KEEP OUR FAMILY TOGETHER.

BROTHERS AND SISTERS, NOW YOU ONLY HAVE EACH OTHER,
NEVER DRIFT APART- YOU HAD A BEAUTIFUL MOTHER.

SOMEONE IN HEAVEN NEEDED HER- MORE THAN US,
SO JESUS TOOK HER- WE MUST NOT FUSS.

JESUS TOOK YOU ON HIS RAINBOW TO HIS HEAVENLY HOME-
NOW YOU’RE AN ANGEL, BUT YOU’RE NOT ALONE.

ONE OF THESE DAYS- I CAN’T SAY WHEN-

I PROMISE YOU, GRANDMA-
WE’LL BE TOGETHER AGAIN.
©1987-2015 Twinkle Wood-VanFleet/Golden Rainbow Poetry/All rights reserved.

Written for, and then publicly read at Sacramento Memorial Lawn. My Grandma was known as Anne Madeline, my sister’s name. When grandma passed away we learned her birth name was Anna Magdalena which is my daughter Kharisma’s, middle names. Since then we’ve learned there is another derivative as well.

Echoes

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Echoes
by Twinkle VanFleet

She doesn’t mind taking the fall for you,
Just let her know what she’s taking it for,
So that when she’s confronted,
The blanket protects you more.

She doesn’t mind catching the shame,
To save your lovely face,
Just don’t let it come to her from the flip side,
Where she has no saving grace.

All it takes is one betrayal, my friends,
To remind us why we guard our heart
One deception, cost 10 loyalties
Be mindful in the choices that alter the dynamic art.

Be conscious that when it changes,
It’s never the same again,
Be cautious of the slips,
That penetrate like acid rain.

But know through each forgiveness,
Comes a new sense of owing,
Everything has a season,
Human nature keeps growing.

She knew from the beginning,
It would be part of the path,
To become wedged in circumstance,
And reap another’s wrath.

She knows there’s a bigger plan,
That sometimes ends in backfire,
Dangling between wonder and misconception,
So that you might acquire.

As we each make it through the storms of battle
She hopes there’s still some splendor,
In the fire once glowing splendiferously,
Which dimmed to a smoldering ember.

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Mom

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Mom
By Twinkle VanFleet

You Were The Arms That Held Me,
When Dreaming Kept Me Awake-

You Were The One Who Stood Beside Me,
When Growing Up Was Hard To Take.

You Were The One Who Encouraged Me,
To Be All I Could Be-

Sometimes, I Gave Up,
But Still, You Were There For Me.

And When You Thought You Had Failed,
I Was By Your Side-

Knowing There Are Many Choices,
You Chose One And Tried.

Thanks For Being My Friend,
You Are What All Moms Should Be-

I Love You, Mom,

Because Through It All-
You Were Loving Me.

Written in my teens. First published online in 1995.

Mom was available in the Spring 1998 edition Of “Poetic Voices Of America” by the then Sparrowgrass Poetry Forum.

ISBN:0923242570

I wish I…

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I wish I…
by Twinkle VanFleet

I wish I may, I wish I might, give my life for my baby tonight,
I wish I could, I wish I had, the extra strength, for another new fight.

I wish I did, I wish I didn’t, know what’s to come, end or begin,
I wish I won’t, I wish I will, learn and grow, through this again.

I wish I knew, I wish I didn’t, all that it takes, to keep going with it,
I wish I felt, I wish I wouldn’t, not my daughter, let me take this.

I wish I had it, I wish she didn’t, so she could thrive, without fears,
I wish we do, I wish we will, have much more, many new years

I wish I can, and I will, carry my baby through her hardest nights,
I wish I may, I wish I might, give my life for my little girl tonight.

©2015 Twinkle VanFleet All Rights Reserved.
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2 year ago

Dad, daughter,

My daughter and I (daughter, right)

Me, husband, daughter.

#StrongerThanPain

To be continued…

On This Day

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On This Day

Dedicated To The Marriage Of Don Marino And Melody Anne
April 18th 1998
Mr. and Mrs. Don Tresca

TODAY, YOU HAVE TAKEN HER,

TO BE YOUR LIFETIME WEDDED WIFE-

TO LOVE, HONOR AND CHERISH HER,

EVEN AFTER SOMEDAY TAKES HER LIFE.

TODAY, YOU HAVE PROMISED TO LOVE HIM,

UNTIL DEATH DO YOU PART-

AND TO LOVE HIM MORE TOMORROW,

AS THIS DAY- WITH ALL OF YOUR HEART.

TODAY- YOU HAVE JOINED TOGETHER,

FOR INFINITY MIGHT BE RIGHT NOW-

TODAY, TOMORROW AND FOREVER,

YOU HAVE TAKEN GOD’S SACRED VOW.

A NEW BEGINNING HAS STARTED TODAY,

BY MARRIAGE YOU ARE ONE-

MAY YOUR LOVE BE UNCONDITIONAL,

AND NEVER COME UNDONE.

©1998-2015 Twinkle Wood-VanFleet/Golden Rainbow Poetry/All rights reserved.
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Odessa Virginia

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ODESSA VIRGINIA
by Twinkle VanFleet

I NEVER CALLED HER MISSES- I NEVER CALLED HER MOM-

BUT A MOTHER SHE WAS- BORN ODESSA VIRGINIA RAAEN.

DURING WORLD WAR TWO- SHE BUILT B TWENTY NINES,

HELPING US WIN THE FIGHT-

A GRAY LADY SHE WAS, FOR HER GENERATIONS PLIGHT.

SHE FELL IN LOVE AND MARRIED A MILITARY MAN

TOGETHER THEY HAD 4 CHILDREN- AFTER THEY FIRST BEGAN.

JAMES, CRYSTAL, TANYA AND ERIK-

AFTER 32 YEARS IT WAS OVER,

SOME SAY SHE JUST COULDN”T BARE IT

.

SHE NEVER RE-MARRIED, SHE TOOK GOOD CARE OF HERSELF-

DEPENDENT ON NO ONE, SHE KEPT TO GOOD HEALTH.

SHE HAD A POWER OF KNOWLEDGE, A SECRET TO MOST-

AND A WISH TO LEAVE THE CITY- HER DREAM WAS THE COAST.

LEAVING BEHIND THE PAST- AND THE FUTURE SHE KNEW-

TO BE FREE OF THE PAIN, SHE COULDNT UN-DO.

I’LL NEVER LOVE ANOTHER QUITE LIKE SHE-

HER INSIGHT GAVE ME THE WISDOM-

FOR WHAT TODAY, TOMORROW AND FOREVER MIGHT BE.

DESTINY WAS TO KNOW HER- GOD GAVE ME TO HER YOUNGEST SON-

THE LAST ONE TO SEE HER- HER DYING WAS YET TO COME.

ALONE SHE CLIMBED THE STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN-

FOR THE COAST AWAITED IN HER SLEEP,

BLESSED IS THE WOMAN SHE WAS- ODESSA VIRGINIA VANFLEET.

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She Awaits Him

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SHE AWAITS HIM

by Twinkle VanFleet

AND HERE HER GROUND HAS COME TO OPEN,

LIKE ARMS SPREAD WIDE IN WELCOME-

PATIENTLY AWAITING HIS COMPANY ONCE SHARED,

SHE’S COME TO GUIDE HIM TO HEAVEN.

ONCE GATHERED ABOUT HER RESTING PLACE,

AND WISHING NEVERMORE-

NOW WE LAY HIM DOWN ATOP HER HEART.

WHERE NEW PAIN AND TEARDROPS POUR.

WHERE TIME HAS NAMED THEM RE-UNITED,

AND A CHILD’S HEART WILL WEEP IN SORROW-

WHERE ANOTHER DADDY IS LAID DOWN TO SLEEP,

AND HIS CHILDREN BEGIN TO FACE THEIR TOMORROW.

WHERE DAUGHTERS CRY AND SONS TOO WILL SHED HIS TEARS,

WHERE WE LAY DOWN OUR FATHERS-

AND LEARN TO COPE WITH OUR FEARS,

I STAND HERE BEFORE YOU- NOT A STRANGER TO THE LIGHT.

SEE YOU IN THE MORNING- SWEET DREAMS, GOODNIGHT.

Answered Prayer

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ANSWERED PRAYER

Dedicated to my son Kurtis Ozra VanFleet

by Twinkle VanFleet

March 31st

I LONGED FOR HIS PRESENCE- I DREAMED HE WAS HERE,

I COULD FEEL HIS SPIRIT- FOR I KNEW HE WAS NEAR.

I CRIED IN THE NIGHT- MY BODY ACHING AND OVERWHELMED,

THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FEELING- FOR HIS HOPE THAT I HELD.

I NEEDED HIS COMFORT AND ALL THE LOVE HE WOULD GIVE-

HE WOULD BE THE DIFFERENCE- IN THIS WORLD THAT WE LIVE.

RUMOR WAS I DIDNT DESERVE HIM, I NEEDED TO TAKE CARE OF WHAT I HAD-

NEVER WAS MY HEART SO HURT- BROKEN AND SO SAD.

I CLOSED MY EYES AND HEARD HIM- MY MOMMY, PLEASE DONT CRY-

I AM THE ONE YOU LONGED FOR, MY WINGS HAVE LEARNED TO FLY.

A VOICE SAID, HE’S ALWAYS LOVED YOU, SO YOU WILL BE THE ONE-

I GAVE YOU WHAT YOU ASK FOR, I BLESSED YOU WITH A SON!

For viewing purposes only. May not be copied, reproduced or altered in any way. Has been published at

several poetry sites through out the years. Originally written 1997.

(Kurtis was born during “The Cold Hard Run” refer to “Look At Us Now”)

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Happy Birthday my Son, I love you! And I know….

Mama Knows… She always knows.

Don’t ever forget.

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On This Day

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ODESSA VIRGINIA by Twinkle VanFleet

I NEVER CALLED HER MISSES- I NEVER CALLED HER MOM-

BUT A MOTHER SHE WAS- BORN ODESSA VIRGINIA RAAEN.

DURING WORLD WAR TWO- SHE BUILT B TWENTY NINES,

HELPING US WIN THE FIGHT-

A GRAY LADY SHE WAS, FOR HER GENERATIONS PLIGHT.

SHE FELL IN LOVE AND MARRIED A MILITARY MAN

TOGETHER THEY HAD 4 CHILDREN- AFTER THEY FIRST BEGAN.

JAMES, CRYSTAL, TANYA AND ERIK-

AFTER 32 YEARS IT WAS OVER,

SOME SAY SHE JUST COULDN”T BARE IT

.

SHE NEVER RE-MARRIED, SHE TOOK GOOD CARE OF HERSELF-

DEPENDENT ON NO ONE, SHE KEPT TO GOOD HEALTH.

SHE HAD A POWER OF KNOWLEDGE, A SECRET TO MOST-

AND A WISH TO LEAVE THE CITY- HER DREAM WAS THE COAST.

LEAVING BEHIND THE PAST- AND THE FUTURE SHE KNEW-

TO BE FREE OF THE PAIN, SHE COULDNT UN-DO.

I’LL NEVER LOVE ANOTHER QUITE LIKE SHE-

HER INSIGHT GAVE ME THE WISDOM-

FOR WHAT TODAY, TOMORROW AND FOREVER MIGHT BE.

DESTINY WAS TO KNOW HER- GOD GAVE ME TO HER YOUNGEST SON-

THE LAST ONE TO SEE HER- HER DYING WAS YET TO COME.

ALONE SHE CLIMBED THE STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN-

FOR THE COAST AWAITED IN HER SLEEP,

BLESSED IS THE WOMAN SHE WAS- ODESSA VIRGINIA VANFLEET.

©1993-2015 Twinkle Wood-VanFleet/Golden Rainbow Poetry/All rights reserved.

Copyright Laws and Regulations of the United States http://www.copyright.gov/title17/

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ODESSA VIRGINIA
by Twinkle VanFleet