Stronger Than Pain

“However weak our hearts may be, we are not that weak we cannot stand the pain, and, however strong we may be, we are not so strong that pain can’t touch us!”

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The Last 6 Months

It’s been 9 months since my husbands 3rd heart attack. Our son Ozra released his first Album Make Better A priority late June. My paternal Grandma passed onto the next at 103 years of age.

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These 2 men featured Ozra known then as Lil Oz on their tracks. Reunited once more with Deus and David V. many years later for Make Better a Priority.

Available on all digital markets. Search: Kurtis Ozra.

I found a physician who’d agree to review my medical records, WC, after 2 years without a provider. I met him 1 time. WC denied his request for 6 followups. He put in for me 6 with him and 6 psych also. I was approved for psych which will determine my need to see him (future medical). I met him in April. I haven’t been allowed (or covered for) to see him since.

I continue to do all I can for myself.  Holistic.

I may be high risk for a completed suicide as a result of uncontrolled physical pain. I know this. I have a solid plan in place if I can’t anymore again. This plan is for my beautiful family to support and implement on my behalf.

I haven’t felt that way, you know the one? No other way out? for 18 months now.

Depression yes, I’m not suicidal.

Sometimes now, when people are like I’m on this med and that one, and have back up for breakthrough because I have the “worse pain ever known to man”, In my head I’m like…

Do you have any idea what it takes to stay alive and have none of that? I’m taken as being better off.  I’m assumed to be able to handle what others cannot.

Anyone’s pain is the worse pain ever when it’s their own pain.

On my own since February of 2016.

Of 4 suicide attempts I was held for being a danger to myself on the first and the last.

I’ve survived.

Hurts like hell still sometimes ya know.

My mindset is,

If you don’t have faith in me, how could I ever have faith in you.  I don’t.

Additionally, I understand the physician is also controlled, need to care for their own lives, families and they deal with much burnout.

Welcome to slavery.