Chronic intractable pain can be challenging.

At summers end of 2021, I put my whole heart and mind into what I coined Music Movement Therapy.

I consumed low carbs which supported my mission to reduce weight, and hopefully help me feel better, minimize inflammation, and promote an overall sense of well being.

I maintained weightloss into 2023, but with a major flare, constant swelling,, old illnesses, internal female troubles, family sicknesses, loss and other heartbreaking instances weight gain was nearly overnight. To be specific, just weeks.

I continued to put in movement and exercise days, at times, 10 minutes, and others only a couple of minutes was accomplishable.

Its become harder and harder. My heart rate variability is consistently low. My average over the last 3 years is 15. Today is 10. My blood oxygen is also on the lower side with an overall average of 94. None of my health metrics are ideal.

My spO2 effects me adversely at 92 or lower. The days I’m 89-91 has me dragging worse than my other low energy days.

My Kiddie pool has been up a month or so but I don’t put in the physical therapy time, I could years ago. I’d then get 1-3 hours a week. The last 2 years 30 minutes to an hour.

Any and all types of movements matter.

I’m not finished with menopause and the female issues have been rough from the very beginning.

I had an exploratory laparotomy when I was 22. I’d lost twins then, with one ectopic and the other in uterus. I’d had internal problems with my organs that began when I was barely a teen. I had lesions removed during the same operation. Painful recovery.

Hopefully, I’ll finally be finished with that aspect of womanhood soon.

Its exhausting always co existing with all the other illnesses.

I still manage chronic pain, CRPS, spinal disorders and numerous others holistically and with stretching, or simply promoting circulation. Always something at the very least. Actual exercise isn’t always achievable.

I’ve been alcohol free 6 years and 6 months. I’ve been cigarette free 3 years and 4 months. There’s not much more I can do for myself.

Today’s a rest and recover day.

We spent yesterday celebrating our grandson Greyson’s 4th birthday. Last month was Ezekiel’s 5th, and the month prior was our granddaughter Liliana’s 1st.

I’m extra swollen and flaring.

They are so very worth the added pain. Grateful for all of them. Our oldest grandson will be 20 upcoming.

I did get in a lot of movement with my very busy grandloves. That counts!

Sending love and prayers to all.